Total Recall

Not really sure why I picked that as the title of my blog- it really doesn't have any real reasoning behind it. Today's blog I really don't have a clue what to write about. My wife has been working out and I am very proud and excited that she is going to go down that road with me. She has been doing very good and I am proud of her motivation and dedication. Well, I also know that I will have a party for her Birthday party! Bring on the rum and good times! That should be a blast and I need to start thinking about it and planning it. I will need to get a hold of Nicole and Julie and see what they have for ideas on the party. I can't have Colleen plan her own party and both Julie and Nicole are very good at planning parties! I miss my grill. I have been dying for a steak or hamburger on the grill but it is finally winter and Maine and cooking outside might not be so much fun. Jessi is going over to Liv and Jordan's house for the night and we won't be able to watch Idol together tonight- I am kinda bummed. I thought all day that I would come home, not have to work out and could play with Sean then watch Idol with Jess. I promised Colleen that I would give her a good massage every night when she works out. That is fair and if she needs support and incentive, I will give them to her. Saturday night is the big casino party at Jerry and Julie's house and I can't wait! I pawned the pager off on AJ so I can drink and have a good time and that is exactly what I plan to do. Work kind of ruined my day this morning. The day was going perfectly fine, people seemed to be in better moods in both buildings and I was getting stuff done. Todd was down helping me like he has been the last two days and I got to thinking that like two more weeks and I would have someone there to help me at work all the time. So I say to Todd, "two more weeks and I will have some help down here- I can't wait!" He kind of looks at me funny and says, "yeah, I have to tell you something." I instantly think, 'uh oh!' So he says, "you won't have any help until at least April- he has some things he needs to take care of and he won't be here until then." I don't know if I made a mad face or rolled my eyes but I felt like I did both at the same time. Nobody else would go through what I go through! If it was anyone else but me being left all alone, they would have found someone by now. Miranda said that they know that I will do it so they don't even worry about it. I know I just came back from vacation and I came back nice and refreshed and ready to work but it is SO hard! It is hard to stay positive and upbeat when you know you have ZERO chance of being caught up and having five minutes to just sit and relax. I haven't taken break in two months. I never take lunch. I work six days a week- sometimes seven and work from 7-530 everyday- longer if they need me to. It just gets tiring and very, very old. I better get one kick ass raise in June because I deserve one. Especially the last three months. Later