Bored and Tired

It Has Been A Long Week...
At Hartt! Yes, I left early and went to Jessi's game on Monday just like I planned! I had a good time messing around with Sean and watching Jessi cheer! We had fun driving home and making up little rhymes or Jessi's cheers, too! I came home tonight and had Rice 'A Roni and hamburg for supper! It is one of my favorites! I am very excited for the Christmas party! I decided to post some summer pictures since winter definitely seems to be here! Cold, snow and almost 60 degrees and rain? Weird weather so far this winter! I have some buddies who want to come over and play Madden Saturday night but I suppose I should run it by my wife before I decide to commit to that! I have the pager this weekend so I don't have it for the Christmas party. I do have the pager for Christmas week but nothing happens with it on Christmas- I know because I think I have had it every Christmas since I got in the rotation! Well, this is a very boring blog so I will quit now before people start dropping like flies from this boring, boredom boredorama of a blog! Night

Feeling Crappy

OK, This Has Been Bugging Me...
For a day now and my wife's wonderful blog pushed me over the edge and I really need to vent about how I feel! First, I am not upset at anyone but myself! I have dropped the ball SO often and SO badly and it never really hit me in the face until yesterday! I was sitting at work, working like I always do and I talked to Colleen on her way home from work and she told me tonight(Thursday) was Jessi's first cheering at the first game! I hung up the phone and got to thinking about that! She didn't ask me if I could get out early, she didn't ask me if I could make the last part of the game. She KNEW that I would be doing what I always do- which is put work first and NOT be there. People on this blog tell me what a great father I am! Let me tell you that yesterday, I felt like I am NOT a good father. I realized that work comes first and my children come second! My wife's work schedule revolves around the kids! Mine takes me to work before they wake up and I get home a whole two hours before they go to bed! I work six days a week- over 60 hours a week so that they can have a nice house, cars, food and things that make them happy. Maybe that isn't what it is all about! What if when my daughter graduates college- which is not all that far away by the way, turns to me and says, "I love you, Dad and you always provided for us but you missed out on A LOT of the things that were important to me!" That KILLS me! I don't want to be that person! Honestly, I don't know what to do about it. They expect me to be there at work on Mondays! Things go friggin haywire when I am not there on Monday. I know the solution- it is actually quite easy! Stop being a slave to Hartt Transportation, take my mondays off like I am supposed to have and lobby my ass off to get my on call down from two weeks to one week! That is hard for me- I am a workaholic and I really hate letting people down! We also can use the money- I am not going to lie! I'm not a young man anymore! I will be 40 next year and my life is more than likely more than half over. Do I want my memories of my children to be that Dad was always working? This is NOT an easy thing for me to talk about! Colleen doesn't even know how I am feeling right now- well, until she reads this! I need to start NOW- this isn't something I can keep putting off and think that work is finally going to say, "OK, you need to go home at 5 PM and take your Mondays off again." That would be nice but with our company monitoring everyone's hours at work and them to not say anything to me about the hours I work! I am respected and people know how hard I work. I need to be there for her next game- I WILL be there! I guess that will be a start!

X-Mas Party, Slacking & Work

So, I Think Everyone...
Knows that our Christmas Party is Dec. 20! Ingrid and Karen, you are invited as always! I am looking forward to it because I think it is the most fun party we have! Good food, fun people and lots of NAKED BOOBIES! OK, maybe not the last part! I might have made that last part up! LOL
So, I have been blog slacking lately! I hadn't posted since the last day of deer season which was 5 days ago! Speaking of deer season, since the season ended, I have seen four deer on the way to work! I saw eight all deer season and all four of those deer were shootable! I am starting to think that the deer don't actually want to die! That they don't worship me and bow down to me when I walk into the woods! Well, I have some new tricks planned for next year and I will have a blast preparing and hunting next year! I am going full out! Bow, rifle, black powder! I WILL kill a deer next year- maybe more than one!
Work has been pretty blah this week! Nothing spectacular or eventful and I have to do yard check for the rest of the week so I have to be at work at 630 AM. Yuck! Oh well, I am off to watch two episodes of The Shield and go to bed! Night

SKUNKED

One Word Describes My...
Deer season! I saw a whopping eight deer all year! I was actually relieved when 426 came and the season was FINALLY over! This season did make me want to start bow hunting again though which is good! I miss bow hunting! We are getting ready to run over to Jerry and Julie's house for a get together tonight and then I have to work seven days in a row! I took today off for the last day and now I get to pay for it! I am on call until Monday and then I have a much needed two weeks off from the pager! I do get it back just in time for Christmas and the Christmas party though so don't worry! I think I just had a vacation but I could truly use another one! Scott and I got a big jump on the bathroom today! He says another hour or two and we will be done! We plan on finishing it next Sunday so we have that to look forward to! Well, off to play! Night

Happy Thanksgiving

I Heart Thanksgiving!
Food, family, football, fun and hunting! The food was EXCELLENT as always! I ate WAY too much and hunted too hard and watched way too much football. I have to work tomorrow and then I have the last day of deer season of then I work Sunday. My brother and I looked at the plumbing and we will tackle the rest of our last bathroom on Saturday! Dad and I hunted hard this morning and still saw no deer! It is looking more and more like I will not get a deer again this year. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and a great long weekend and I hope everyone ate enough or too much! Well, I am off to watch Survivor with my woman and then CSI! Have a good night!

Someone Has G 'N R

OK, So Today Marks the First...
Time in like 5 years that I actually paid cash for a CD! Jewels called me from Best Buy and asked me if I wanted her to get me the new GNR CD and I said you bet I do! OK, I have waited 14 years for this CD to come out! No- it does NOT have Slash or Duff or Izzy or even a heroin addicted Steven Adler on it! Yes, it has Axl and a guy who wears a KFC bucket on his head and a bunch of guys I wouldn't know if I was pissing next to them in a urinal! They are my all time favorite- no other group comes close! Dyan was talking about seeing Garth Brooks at our last get together and how she would love to see him live! My first thought when she said that was, "that is how I am for GNR." I have still owned every GNR CD that there has ever been! OK, lets get to a review since I have now listened to pretty much the whole thing! Axl doesn't have the range he had when GNR was THE thing. This is actually pretty easy to pick up from the start! He can still sing like no other though! His range and distinctive voice is what makes him who he is! Overall, the vocals are better than I thought they'd be after seeing them on the MTV awards. As good as Appetite? No! Better than I thought and still powerful and soulfull? ABSOLUTELY! Songwriting? This is where I thought GNR would really suffer missing Izzy! Honestly, the jury is still out! I think the songwriting is pretty good throughout the album and seems to have a GNR tone to it! Guitars? This guy with the bucket on his head is really very good! Is he Slash? Absolutely, 100%, without a doubt in the world- NO! Slash's riffs made GNR Guns 'N Roses! He is missed! Buckethead can play, he gets Axl's style and they fit pretty good and the music and melodies mesh pretty well together! To pick a favorite song, I'd have to say 'Street of Dreams'! I have listened to it like ten times and it absolutely vintage Axl! Slash absolutely ripping something up and rising from the ocean would have been cool, too but that is old and kind of 'been there, done that'! OK, am I happy I shelled out $12 for the new GNR CD? Without a doubt! I really like the CD and will have plenty of rides to and from work wearing it out like I did Appetite, Lies and Illusions! Hey, if nothing else, I spent 12 bucks to feel like I was 19 again and feel cool for having the latest GNR CD! Hokey- probably. Do I care? Nope- not a little bit! LOL- well, off to listen to a little more GNR, take a shower and settle in for the night! Later

Bad Dogs!

I Was Checking My...
Game camera pictures and caught these pics of a couple of bad dogs out past where they are supposed to be! I get a kick out of the fact that they always head out there around the same time both days! I am LOVING this week! I have two more days of work, then it is Thanksgiving and then I work Friday and have Saturday off for the last day of deer hunting! I finally saw another deer today! Actually, it was tonight on my way home from work- on the road I work on! Which is in Bangor and in a no hunting zone! I am thinking I will walk out back in the morning for like 20 minutes then go to work! I have NOT given up hope on a deer yet! I still have two full days off to hunt and stranger things have happened! I have almost shot a deer out back with a grand total of 25 minutes to hunt! I absolutely love Thanksgiving as I have made perfectly clear! Well, the Vikings won a game yesterday that wasn't close! They are tied for first in the division and playing a VERY big game against the Bears Sunday night! Go Saints! I want New Orleans to win tonight so the Vikes will only be tied with the Bears for first! Well, I am sure this is a very long and boring blog to most people who read this! Sorry- I didn't have a lot to say! Night